Energiser-bunny on social media

Do you ever feel like you don't know what to think or believe sometimes?

I have this thing whereby I can just sit on my bed (or room floor if I havent showered) and scroll through my social media for ages. And I mean AGES. Just like that and my scrolling will usually scroll away 3-4 hours of my day.

I remembered someone sharing before that a single half-hour feels very different when you are trying to sleep and when you are waking up. The extra half-hour feels like nothing before bed but so SOO important when we are trying to wake up. 

So funny and so true.

Anyway, TikTok had SO MUCH information and SO MANY opinions that after scrolling for hours I felt like I had so. many. voices. in my head. 

All trying to tell me what to do or how to live my life, and often it's hard to discern what is true and what is just a popular societal opinion (majority opinion ≠ truth).

Some of the things on my TikTok feed:

• Psychology tricks to navigate human relations; ie how to tell if someone is lying, make someone like you etc. (As a psych student I can conclude that psychology is never absolute and never of the same impact on all individuals, just on the basis that each individual is simply too unique and society too dynamic. But ok I get the general gist of the tricks mentioned.)
• Lifestyle practices and random life hacks (mainly food here haha. Oh how I LOVEE food.)
• What NFTs to buy into (this gave me a headache cos I only recently learnt how to buy into stocks and now I have to learn this new 💩? And who else feels this gives you FOMO vibes?)
• Investment practices of young people (this unconsciously made me stressed cos it was all like "make $XX before 21", "teenagers getting $XX due to this". I didnt ask for this pressurising info TikTok!!)
• Random good-looking people trying to garner clout by doing trend videos etc (I had to tell TikTok to stop feeding me this also. There is this attention-gathering vibe from these kinda videos that rubs off to me and I didnt like that.)

Brain felt like a harddrive on overdrive after all the information download haha. 🧠⚡️ 

This is in addition to my existing thoughts on what is considered normal in society that I talked about in my previous post. 

Oh the PAINS of having an energiser-bunny brain. 

Idk if you’re a thinker like me and you get what I mean.

So now I needa take a chill pill. I vomited out all the info I downloaded to Jesus sia. Forced myself to sit with Him to calm my heart and head down. 

Like chill out man, no needa fret so much on these many opinions Mindy. 😑 

Honestly right, just as quickly as my brain went into overdrive just now figuring out what is “truth” from the info presented to me did it also suddenly came into this realisation: if God is Creator, all-knowing, and definitely still in charge, ask Him what He thinks is the truth then. 

And then I also randomly remember He really loves me too hehe. This already calms my thoughts down. 

Ok so I don’t have any definite answers to all the opinions of the world but all I know is that I feel much better now. 

Sometimes, I think about how I’m living my everyday with someone like God (sounds weird when I put it like that) and I’m amazed at how intimate we can be, and what it means to have Him be present in my heart, calibrating and cleaning my soul. 

Thanks Jesus for giving my energiser-bunny brain a chill pill. Love you. 

Smiling to myself even as I type these out in Starbucks. You make my heart happy Jesus.