Don't be a scaredy cat

These things freak me out - insects, worms, live (not cute) animals, parasites, needles, pain, blood, dirt, unsanitary things etc. 

Interestingly though, I’m not afraid of horror movies, heights, roller coasters, ghosts, the dark (you sure Mindy?) etc. Generally scary things, fast things and supernatural things don’t really scare me. 👻 

In fact, I love thrilling / horror stuff. Initially, I'll get frightened yes, I’ll scream yes, I’ll cover my eyes yes, but I can't deny how exciting they are. Think it's mainly due to the fact that I like having adrenaline-rushes, and I'm not afraid of death per se. Of course that doesn't mean I'm reckless and want to get myself hurt etc, am still afraid of pain and blood after all. 

You know with regards to ghosts and supernatural stuff, I have this funny but TOTALLY LEGIT theory. 

I used to get really scared of supernatural stuff haunting me, especially after watching horror movies where they show spirits hiding behind your door / under your bed, or pulling your leg and messing with you when you're asleep, or appearing behind you in a mirror.

Then I thought about it, why are these spirits so funny. Can you imagine them hiding behind your room door waiting for you to show up BUT you suddenly need to use the 🚽 to 💩, so you backtrack and take your own sweet time using your phone in the toilet.

Spirit hiding behind your door at this moment:

Or if you are washing your face and the ghost has been waiting for you to get home all day just to spook you through the mirror, but you had to go get soap in your eyes just as the ghost makes its grand entrance. 

So the ghost just stands behind you wishing for some attention while you fumble with yourself.

Don't you think so??

I know you're convinced by my logic. 😛 Not so scary after all. So after I realised this I wasn't afraid of spirits / ghosts etc anymore. Of course I don't go looking for them lah.

Aiya so much talk about my logic but I know the true reason why I carry no fear is because the Spirit who is in me is greater than any spirit on the outside. My God lives in me. 

This is really the reason why I can confidently say I'm not afraid of these supernatural things. Not so much because of my logical rationality, though you know it totally makes sense as well.

Random but I came across this article by CNA recently on how more and more people are choosing not to have children, and it got me thinking again. Like I always do.

Wana read? Why more married couples are remaining childless

And the weird thing was that this article popped up during the same period when a few of my (different) friends told me that they don't want to have kids (not that I even asked them). Idk what kind of eavesdropping FB/google is doing but ok. Interesting.

The main reason mentioned is that "the world can be an ugly place", and that they are afraid / unwilling to bring a new child into this broken world - which was exactly what one of my friend said as well!

The other reason is that Singapore is understandably, highly stressful in the economic sense, and many would rather prioritise their own career or individual lifestyle over sharing it with children.

Okay, understand. Hmm now I am honestly curious about what more people think about this.

I personally love love LOVE children, but am also acutely aware of the pains of being human here in this fallen world, and I guess my love for children unconsciously brings about a protective side of me that just doesn't think it's worth it to make a child go through this world. 

I mean this can get very philosophical where we bring in the meaning of life and our purpose here on earth etc, but I'm not going there. 

Just an experienced me being afraid of letting the broken world break my child. 

But then again, I realised that I'm making this decision based on fear. And is that really the best way to make a decision?

Am I'm totally going against this mantra that I've always believed in (still trying to live it out):

"May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears."

- Nelson Mandela

Sometimes in the face of everything sad /bad the world shows me I forget that that’s not all the truth we get to live with. Did God not declare that we, His children, are now heirs of this world? Did Jesus not die to pay the price of redeemed authority that we now have here on this world? Did the devil not get kicked in his 🍑 and lose any right to lord over God's people?

So I ask myself: Do I answer to the promises of God or to the dictates of this world?

And I ask myself somemore: Why should I be afraid of the world breaking my child, when the world should be afraid of my child taking his/her place in revolutionising it?

Am I making a choice out of fear, or out of my hope of the possible GREAT things to come?

And so it's back to the question again of "Do I really believe God is in control over my life?". If yes, then Mindy why you so scared ah. 

From big things such as a child's character and well-being, to the limited-edition time and provision required to raise a child, I'm pretty sure God can easily take care of it all. 

(Feels good to pen down all these questions that I ask myself.)

So now I have decided. Let's have children. 😍

Having 3 children and adopting 1 more sounds perfect.