I have a show to recommend

Was just reading through my older entries from way back then and omg SO CRINGEY LOL. EEK goosebumps from the inside out. 

I guess this is probably the same feeling some people get from watching themselves on screen. Funny AND cringey, and unfortunately both don't go well together. 😂

Thought about it and decided I won't be deleting these old posts though. Cringey but I don't regret the old me. I mean after all, it made me who I am today, and all things truly work out for my good. Everyone starts from somewhere. Everyone makes mistakes. And everyone changes, hopefully for the better. 

So I don't really see a need to hide who I was before. Despite being so awkward and immature and approval-seeking OMG. 

Just finished watching this netflix documentary-movie-ish (?) that talks about food WHOOP! 🥳 

Ok so here's the thing, it didn't start out talking about food. This UFC fighter wanted to truly understand the human body's peak performance - from strength and energy to athletic power, and even what is considered a "manly" diet. Whatever that means.

Show's called The Game Changers. Watch it and tell me what you think: https://www.netflix.com/us/title/81157840?s=i&trkid=13747225&vlang=en&clip=81195225

Am amazed that this show managed to keep me hooked throughout (thought I would be straight up bored halfway). I usually need a lot of action and exciting storylines in a show to keep my attention. 

Think cinematographers are doing a good job directing documentaries nowadays, have been watching a few recently and they're all surprisingly quite interesting. Maybe also cos I like learning new things.

How do you usually spend your free time? 

I used to go out all the time - like nearly every day - mainly to meet people, and I really liked that. Though I can't deny that it also made me so tired. 

Sometimes, I would even fall asleep on my room floor cos I would sit on it to charge my phone when I get home. Then I would browse a bit here and there and before you know it, boom GOOD MORNING. Lol.

So I really appreciated the WFH period cos it did give me extra time to rest. But now with group gatherings restricted, I have many days where I really don't have much on my schedule. As much as going out every day can be tiring, to me spending time with great people is always fulfilling and time very well spent.

And I rather be tired + fulfilled, than to be free + bored. 

I didn't want to spend my free time searching for the next best show to binge on. One or two here and there is good and lovely, but not with every free time I get. 

Maybe that’s why I prefer to watch informative / documentary stuff nowadays. To convince myself that I’m being somewhat productive (ok lah I also truly enjoy finding out new stuff). 

After many hours and late nights binging on a random drama, I usually get an eeky sick feeling that's the same as if I've just eaten a week of fast food lol. Literally same feeling ack. 

It's as though my body is reminding me that I'm not designed to just catch up on dramas, just like how our bodies aren't designed to just eat fast food.

Time is such a funny thing. We only have an average lifespan of 83.9 years (according to google for Singaporeans). That's like only about 4,374 weeks in our lifetime! I imagine 4,374 weeks as though I have $4,374 and I realised it's actually not a lot. Some weeks, I don't even know what I did cos it just flew by yikes.

Instead of striking fear in me, it's kinda serving like a wake-up call. I don't regret the wasted weeks cos come on, we literally have no time for regrets haha let's just move on the best way we can. And I still take God at His word when He says He will make all things work out for my good.

But it's another thing to already know that time is a gift and grace is available, and still deliberately waste both. 

So... Jesus can you teach me how to use this gift? 😛 Show me what time means to you Lord, and also how you meant it to be for us here on earth. I wana follow you.

Meanwhile, being anxious about time isn't gonna help anything, so I'll still do what I can on the outside but keep my inside at rest.

On a random note, my house area has this weird phenomenon where there's a strong smell of cheese in the middle of the night LOL. I kid you not. Every night after 2am or so I will most definitely smell this strong scent of cheese coming from outside my room window (trust me I've tried to trace the smell). Wish I can document it somehow but how do you even document smells.

I can totally smell it now. Think only my close friend who stayed over at my place previously knows what I'm talking about, cos I made her sit at my window to experience it. 😂 "I told you right!!" Unsolved mystery of my house area.

Am open to any theories. 🙃